Hello again, busy seems to interrupt my time. Each day is new, and His mercies are new every day. Thank you Lord for that! Thanks to you as well dear readers. I know there are a few of you out there, and one from Canada. Know you are loved, not only by me, but by a God who is bigger, stronger and has more love for you than any human can provide.

It is amazing how…you hear that a lot from me. Everyday there is something I find amazing, interesting, educational, or just something. This time it happened as I was driving, which is a majority of the time. We were listening to the radio and a song came on that I hadn’t to the best of my knowledge heard before. I listened to the words, ignoring my children at the moment because the words were my words. Or should I say words I have thought, maybe even spoken. The song by Sanctus Real “Pray” blew my mind when I heard it. I couldn’t wait to tell my friend about it. “Have you heard this song? It’s called “Pray” it is so, well, you have to hear it!” For those of you who know me, you can hear me, and that is hilarious. I found the song on YouTube and turned up the volume so she could hear it. No more than 2 notes hit the air when she said, “Oh, ya, I have heard this.” Then she proceeds to sing the whole song.  Again I was a bit floored, “How in the world?” I asked.  She kept singing and smiled. I guess in Michigan it is played more than in Ohio. The link and lyrics are below this blog if you’d like to listen.

 It is intriguing that two people can listen to the same song, one cries and the other joyfully lifts their hands in praise. God is so good. I have wanted, longed for what I used to have with God, the relationship, the trust and the love. I miss it I miss what He can do through me when we are close. There are sparks here and there, but no fire. I have started going to a bible study, and have asked God to change me.

 There are things you need to be prepared for when you ask God. Make sure you think through your decision.  “Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get.” Forrest Gump. You may have one thing in mind when asking God to change you, mold you and make you to reflect Him, He may have another plan. He usually does, and that is a good thing because if we got what we asked for or deserved, BAM! It is what is best for us or those around us. I thank you Lord that you know far better than I what my life is and will be.

 The song “Pray” summed up how I am feeling, how I have felt. Oh the words wash over me reminding me of what it was like when I first believed. (Dearest sister in Christ, cherry lifesavers could not do what only Christ could. Thank you for that day.) Cleansing, renewing, refreshing, I had so much lifted from my shoulders, from my mind. I am beginning to hear His voice again in my head. Being in the word, going to bible study, letting him move in me, or should I say right now, through me. He is moving through me, taken the baggage, the pain, the loss and sorrow. He swooshes through and takes a few things every day, and I pray.

Music is powerful. It can be hidden from you till the time God needs you to hear it. A song can turn a life around, hold a hurting heart, and turn mourning into dancing. Thank you Lord for the music only you can orchestrate in my soul. Amen

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrQHNQ0hwQE

 “Pray”

I bow my head to pray, I don’t know what to say
I’m not sure how to fix the things I’m dealing with
I’m in a desperate place, I need to share the weight
But I just don’t know how, to let it all pour out
Though I’m silent, my heart is crying
Cause I was made to come to You

So I pray
God I need You more than words can say
Right here in this moment
You know my heart, You know my need
You know every part of me
So even if it’s just to speak Your name
I’m gonna pray

I failed to find the time, but You’ve been calling out
I let the days go by as if I could live without
But it’s gotta be here now, I won’t be pulled away
Cause it’s just You and I, so let the world around us fade

As I pray
God I need You more than words can say
Right here in this moment
You know my heart, You know my need
You know every part of me
So even if it’s just to speak Your name
I’m gonna pray
I’m gonna pray

(Father)
Will You meet me here right now?
(Father)
I surrender, lay it down
(Father)
And every time I close my eyes
I know that I was made
To lift my hands and pray
I lift my hands and pray

You know my heart, You know my need
And every single part of me
So even if it’s just to speak Your name
I’m gonna pray
I’m gonna pray

You know my heart, You know my need
You know every part of me
More than words, You are my life
Take it as an offering